i need earplugs for the silence!

my {many} attempts to go inward and still have rendered me in slobbering fits.

i want to pluck a banjo whilst wearing a tutu;

not find my breathy bliss sans pretty pictures in my head.

how do you nutjobs people do it?

is my music not sitar-fused enough? my kundalini too j. crew?
help please.

i’m determined to nail this zen shit.