white blank page.
clean slate.
excuse me miss, but do you sell disinfectant for my brain?
something to comet and pine sol the doubt and bitten lip memories loitering in my head.
rejections of …… the way life used to be.
the jolly and jolt of acting is losing its luster with each no and not right.
telephone silence slashing and slicing into my ever diminishing kettle of pluck and nerve.
BUT
don’t mistake me for dreary or bleak; the opposite rather.
yesterday was a task in wrangling my inappropriate giggle fits.
and each hour i’m given moments so hallmark it’s amazing i don’t walk around in a 24 hour cycle of blubbering ado.
a phone call with my aunt char, edith piaf at a cafe’, a sparkly beret on ella, bird of paradise in morning yoga, a woo-hoo from one of my spin students, feeding the hungry, twirling, howling beasts, texts from my dad, dinner with my ‘family’, a kiss goodnite from my hunkiest.
a deluge of delights flooding my life.
shame on me if i choose not to recognize them.
so for now i’ve scoured the deep cornices of my cerebral cortex.
clogs, snags, hindrances begone!
at least until tomorrow….{a girl knows her limits}.
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Good girl!! you have the right attitude, hang in there. I admire your pluck.
love the clean, white motif 🙂
Love the pictures! I feel as if I tend to sound dreary and bleak when I have so much joy in life, really.
chin up! 🙂
Absolutely amazing. I am going to read this every morning for my daily perspective. Thank you for this beautiful blog.
Love you.
Love it – keep it up – just think I'm in sales it takes about 20-100 calls a day to get one appointment so everytime you get frustrated just think your odds are a lot better LOL! Love the clean slate. Tomorrow is a new day and could be your day!
It all sounds pretty good to me, and a bunch of no's usually means that you're going in the right direction–at least that's what I tell myself, but I'm crazy that way 🙂
xo Mary Jo