mr. october, you’ve been quite the kick in the teeth.

they say slings and arrows come in groups of threes, but monday mailed in a fourth heartbreak with another death of a young friend.

i am soothing my sadness with “thank you’s” for the time and chance to have known all of these magnificent people.

but if you need me, i’ll be at the bottom of this bucket, scraping at sweetness, attempting to coat the mango-sized, lump in my throat with sugar and cream, knowing well what i really should do is grab my running shoes or read my book.

please no condolences to me, send love out to your friends, family, community, or maybe just a stranger.

i’m sending bundles to you m’loves.